Kushiel

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a woman had just gotten out of the shower when she heard a knock at the door.

so she went to the door and said "who is it?"

"It's the Blind Man, May I come in?"

She thought about it for a second then decided "Yes, you can come in"

she opened up the door and let him in saying a very nice "Hello"

The man answered back with a smile on his face "Nice tit's, where do you want me to hang the blinds?"

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Sorry. Figured I would open with a joke.
I haven't had much to do with myself lately.. you know.. basically living life in the twirl that it has spun me up into.
Howard Johnson terminated me.. shortly after the person who terminated me was let go. tough nougies!
I have been fascinated with songs about water and running lately.. amazing.. I was just looking through my iTunes list and noticed it... I think I need to just get away from my life and live life by myself.. with just two arms open.. one for my closest friends... and one on God.. It's been hard this year.. and I am happy to say I don't see myself falling down anytime and really letting the darkness take over.. I am probably more optimistic than ever.. I have really started to let myself take over. Let my goals pursue themselves.. and let my spirit and style dance in the faces of those who said I shouldn't. It's almost magical.
I love sitting at the Des Moines marina and painting the sunset.. painting while Brit sit by with her feet in the water... it's wonderful just to be content in the world.. even for a few moments... I like that me and Brit have a bond that we can feed off of.. we know when something is wrong.. and we know what will make each other feel better.. and sometimes its a big gesture.. but it's little meanings that capture our smiles the most...
I feel blessed in my skin right now.. My family life may not be the strongest.. but my faith just continues to grow.. and my perspective of life continues to grow bigger and bigger... and its because of that that I know the sunset is not hte closing on a a day.. but a start of another..
I really don't know what to say.. I guess.. That I am content.
Jobless, heartbroken, and artistic-ly.. content.
  • Current Music
    Hope Now <~> Addison Road
I&#39;m not happy anymore

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Sorry I have been so distant lately.. I just have a lot on my plate.. my computer fried itself again.. and I havebeen really using my twitter more than anything else (same username on there as on here)
Problem is things are just getting to a point were its all starting to catch up.. I am getting to a point were things are just making me sad.. things that shouldn't..
I mean this year has been better overall.. The seasonal depression is pretty much gone..
but I'm lonely... and need a new job.. and a car I really want to drive.
I don't like just sitting around waiting for things to happen.. but I don't like messing up what might happen for the better if i don't. so till then everything Iw ant is on hold.. till I have a way that is opened up to me that says I might be able to.. a clear sign from god saying I can go fourth with his plans..
one of which i hope is college. I don't have the funding for it.. and having my parents sit down and help me is like pulling teeth.
so till things get figure out I will still be working in a job I dislike, waiting for guy that will treat me right, and hoping I can take the classes in college I want while driving the car I want.
dreams... dreams.. their right next door to the closet in my mind that says "vacation" (i'm lucky that door is getting opened a crack this may for Omak and Las Vegas..)
  • Current Music
    the first episode of Fresh Prince of Bel Air
need speed!

@_@

I have 45 mingutes lewft of my shiuft.. and i am horribly tired.. like i cant stand it.. and sine ia have sworn off coffee... this is going to be short ride hone... and hten a even fast topple into bed....
  • Current Mood
    exhausted exhausted
I crap rainbows

*thinks*

I think the word of the day should be Orwellian... yup.. That is my goal... to use the word Orwellian in a sentence.. either that or totalitarian.. both sound good and depict the same thing.. :P

PS... MY HAIR IS NOW AUBURN! It looks loverly!
*smiles* - coffee swirl

*laughs*

I love how in my recently typed list when ever I talk about Lipstick Jungle the title is "*laughs*"
no but serisouly.. I love how I always get tigles up and down my spine when i hear Lipstick Jungles theme Music..... it makes me happy.. and so does the fact of having all the episodes now. ^_^ w00t! now.. if NBC would just release a press release stating when the show is coming back. I refuse to let it drop.

PS. still love the scene were Griffin kisses Nico in the elevator then the next second they are fully apart on either side of the elevator trying not to giggle as people walk in.
blue tung -wow

hmm.. look what I just learned!

I did not know that Gwen Stefani and Madonna were cousins.. that's pretty awesome... imagine if they went on tour together... O.O

PS.. i am back to pretty happy self.. just was a rough night.. sorry to lay it on all of you at once...
*smiles* - coffee swirl

another one.. sorry

I got tagged on Facebook to do this Meme.. but I don't want to post it on there.. since.. well.. I have a few teachers on there.

The Needy Meme:
Look up your name on Google.com followed by the words "needs" (Example "Patricia needs") then post the top ten needs for your name.

1. Anna needs to be excused from class (what class?)

2. Anna needs sex (ummmmmmmmmMMmmmmMMMmmm...)

3. Anna NEEDS MORE COFFEE!!! (I actually have pretty much stopped drinking coffee and switched over to tea)

4. Anna needs a fan club (Okay!!)

5. Anna needs the money she's owed to put food on the table (or to pay her insurance bill....)

6. Anna needs to be changed (don't we all at some point?)

7. Anna needs her own smiley (lets get cracken on that one!)

8. Anna needs new ones (from a plastic surgery site XD)

9. Anna needs botox (LOL!!!!!!)

10. anna needs 2 gt a fuckn life!!!! gosh ur bn a babe!! ;) (that one made me laugh the most! hahaha!)
  • Current Music
    Everywhere <~> Stevie Nicks/ Fleetwood Mac
Searching My soul

I'm still up

still up in a forgotten second
minutes that normally pass quiet
strip me bare and cold
as what time I had
slips away
untouched
into the cover of a black velvet night
I try to lull myself into peace
my seconds stretch
my mind releases
its prisoners
slowly