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they call me Anna, I call myself a happy disaster.
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[Jun. 22nd, 2009|10:46 pm] |
| [ | entering sounds |
| | Hope Now <~> Addison Road | ] |
a woman had just gotten out of the shower when she heard a knock at the door.
so she went to the door and said "who is it?"
"It's the Blind Man, May I come in?"
She thought about it for a second then decided "Yes, you can come in"
she opened up the door and let him in saying a very nice "Hello"
The man answered back with a smile on his face "Nice tit's, where do you want me to hang the blinds?"
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Sorry. Figured I would open with a joke.
I haven't had much to do with myself lately.. you know.. basically living life in the twirl that it has spun me up into.
Howard Johnson terminated me.. shortly after the person who terminated me was let go. tough nougies!
I have been fascinated with songs about water and running lately.. amazing.. I was just looking through my iTunes list and noticed it... I think I need to just get away from my life and live life by myself.. with just two arms open.. one for my closest friends... and one on God.. It's been hard this year.. and I am happy to say I don't see myself falling down anytime and really letting the darkness take over.. I am probably more optimistic than ever.. I have really started to let myself take over. Let my goals pursue themselves.. and let my spirit and style dance in the faces of those who said I shouldn't. It's almost magical.
I love sitting at the Des Moines marina and painting the sunset.. painting while Brit sit by with her feet in the water... it's wonderful just to be content in the world.. even for a few moments... I like that me and Brit have a bond that we can feed off of.. we know when something is wrong.. and we know what will make each other feel better.. and sometimes its a big gesture.. but it's little meanings that capture our smiles the most...
I feel blessed in my skin right now.. My family life may not be the strongest.. but my faith just continues to grow.. and my perspective of life continues to grow bigger and bigger... and its because of that that I know the sunset is not hte closing on a a day.. but a start of another..
I really don't know what to say.. I guess.. That I am content.
Jobless, heartbroken, and artistic-ly.. content. |
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| brit quotes for 05-07-09 |
[May. 7th, 2009|11:38 pm] |
Harlett? No fair! You picked the cool whore name
Lord Jesus I just thank you for this orgasm.
how do you know my britches are cold? You better keep your hands to yourself!! |
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[May. 1st, 2009|01:52 am] |
| [ | the best way to describe me right now is |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | entering sounds |
| | the first episode of Fresh Prince of Bel Air | ] |
Sorry I have been so distant lately.. I just have a lot on my plate.. my computer fried itself again.. and I havebeen really using my twitter more than anything else (same username on there as on here)
Problem is things are just getting to a point were its all starting to catch up.. I am getting to a point were things are just making me sad.. things that shouldn't..
I mean this year has been better overall.. The seasonal depression is pretty much gone..
but I'm lonely... and need a new job.. and a car I really want to drive.
I don't like just sitting around waiting for things to happen.. but I don't like messing up what might happen for the better if i don't. so till then everything Iw ant is on hold.. till I have a way that is opened up to me that says I might be able to.. a clear sign from god saying I can go fourth with his plans..
one of which i hope is college. I don't have the funding for it.. and having my parents sit down and help me is like pulling teeth.
so till things get figure out I will still be working in a job I dislike, waiting for guy that will treat me right, and hoping I can take the classes in college I want while driving the car I want.
dreams... dreams.. their right next door to the closet in my mind that says "vacation" (i'm lucky that door is getting opened a crack this may for Omak and Las Vegas..) |
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| *laughs* Because of my Mom.... |
[Apr. 1st, 2009|12:05 am] |
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I just bought my registration for NorWesCon for me and David... *raises up her sewing needle* here's is to (hoping) to actually go!! |
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| @_@ |
[Mar. 18th, 2009|06:11 am] |
| [ | the best way to describe me right now is |
| |  exhausted | ] |
I have 45 mingutes lewft of my shiuft.. and i am horribly tired.. like i cant stand it.. and sine ia have sworn off coffee... this is going to be short ride hone... and hten a even fast topple into bed.... |
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| *thinks* |
[Mar. 11th, 2009|02:03 am] |
I think the word of the day should be Orwellian... yup.. That is my goal... to use the word Orwellian in a sentence.. either that or totalitarian.. both sound good and depict the same thing.. :P
PS... MY HAIR IS NOW AUBURN! It looks loverly! |
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| *laughs* |
[Mar. 6th, 2009|06:40 am] |
I love how in my recently typed list when ever I talk about Lipstick Jungle the title is "*laughs*"
no but serisouly.. I love how I always get tigles up and down my spine when i hear Lipstick Jungles theme Music..... it makes me happy.. and so does the fact of having all the episodes now. ^_^ w00t! now.. if NBC would just release a press release stating when the show is coming back. I refuse to let it drop.
PS. still love the scene were Griffin kisses Nico in the elevator then the next second they are fully apart on either side of the elevator trying not to giggle as people walk in. |
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| hmm.. look what I just learned! |
[Mar. 5th, 2009|02:50 am] |
I did not know that Gwen Stefani and Madonna were cousins.. that's pretty awesome... imagine if they went on tour together... O.O
PS.. i am back to pretty happy self.. just was a rough night.. sorry to lay it on all of you at once... |
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| another one.. sorry |
[Mar. 2nd, 2009|06:22 am] |
| [ | the best way to describe me right now is |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | entering sounds |
| | Everywhere <~> Stevie Nicks/ Fleetwood Mac | ] |
I got tagged on Facebook to do this Meme.. but I don't want to post it on there.. since.. well.. I have a few teachers on there.
The Needy Meme:
Look up your name on Google.com followed by the words "needs" (Example "Patricia needs") then post the top ten needs for your name.
1. Anna needs to be excused from class (what class?)
2. Anna needs sex (ummmmmmmmmMMmmmmMMMmmm...)
3. Anna NEEDS MORE COFFEE!!! (I actually have pretty much stopped drinking coffee and switched over to tea)
4. Anna needs a fan club (Okay!!)
5. Anna needs the money she's owed to put food on the table (or to pay her insurance bill....)
6. Anna needs to be changed (don't we all at some point?)
7. Anna needs her own smiley (lets get cracken on that one!)
8. Anna needs new ones (from a plastic surgery site XD)
9. Anna needs botox (LOL!!!!!!)
10. anna needs 2 gt a fuckn life!!!! gosh ur bn a babe!! ;) (that one made me laugh the most! hahaha!) |
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| I'm still up |
[Mar. 1st, 2009|05:07 am] |
still up in a forgotten second
minutes that normally pass quiet
strip me bare and cold
as what time I had
slips away
untouched
into the cover of a black velvet night
I try to lull myself into peace
my seconds stretch
my mind releases
its prisoners
slowly |
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| Yes!!!!! SHTE#Y**&FYH!! |
[Feb. 27th, 2009|05:45 pm] |
| [ | the best way to describe me right now is |
| |  ecstatic | ] |
| [ | entering sounds |
| | The babysitters here <~> Dar Williams | ] |
DAR WILLIAMS IS PLAYING A SHOW AT THE MOORE THEATRE!!!
Dar Williams
When: Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Where: Moore Theatre, Seattle
W00t!! BRING ON THE DAR!!!
PS: Also trying to figure out how to get tickets to go see Fleetwood Mac.. that's a bit more tricky... :/ |
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| meme |
[Feb. 25th, 2009|05:31 am] |
I know.. I haven't done a Meme in forever... But this one was good.
Make your own album cover and band name: here's a totally random way to make your new random band's new random album cover. Post one! Go to Wikipedia: Random and the first article you get is the name of your band. Then go to Random Quotations and the last four or five words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album. Then, go to Flickr and click on Last Updated Picture and the third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.
I suggest Picasa 3 to put everything together quickly ;)
Here's Mine :P
What are yours? I wanna see!!! |
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| blarggg |
[Feb. 19th, 2009|12:44 am] |
Anna just wants to go home.. I have been here just under 2 hours... I know.. who am I to complain... Oh! Nick. If your reading this.. Put in your application over here at the Howard Johnson... We are looking for someone for our morning team.. I think you might fit.
Uggg. really want to go home... but I am just tired.. and have a bunch of stuff to do today...
Lost my phone for a period of time today.. found it in the yard.. lucky beans were with me on that one..
then got a bloody nose.. merg.. and had one more cigg.. needed it.... I know it's a bad thing to get into.. but really did.. I need to feel calm right now.. and thats the only thing doing it besides just sleeping... and sleep really isn't my friend to much. |
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| S#!t |
[Feb. 17th, 2009|11:30 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Howard Johnson In Tukwila | ] |
| [ | the best way to describe me right now is |
| |  cynical | ] |
| [ | entering sounds |
| | What You Wanted <~> Angus and Julia Stone | ] |
So On top of my Aunt dying last Tuesday.. and me having to go to her funeral on Valentines day.. (part of the day was happy)
I find out that my boyfriend is going back to Job Corp... by choice.. and I had a dream about my dad.. that he had a heart attack.. it wasn't clear enough to tell if he died.. but the doc's said one more and he's gone.. so I am assuming the worst.. and freaking out due to it.. and about college... and about my grandmas failing health... and about my job... and about life in general.. whether I am doing enough in the small frame of time I have... stupid dreams.. so to just make it a little easier.. 1 cigg so far.. I was good until the shit storm of stuff hit me tonight... but 1 cigg isn't bad.. i haven't even smoked the whole thing yet.. just.. 2/3... but my manager left me the rest of his pack.. saying "You might need these." and gave me a huge hug and a kiss on the cheek (He's gay) and said goodbye.
I have been really good.. for a long time.. but when shit hits the fan; I hit the flame...
Arguably the worst week in my life... |
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[Feb. 14th, 2009|05:10 pm] |
| [ | the best way to describe me right now is |
| |  impressed | ] |
yaya for Nick! He was so awesome.. i took lots of notes and he gave out Lots of notes.. and No I will not be saying who he is designing for... that is majorly famous.. that's coming up in a month... nope! |
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| .....hmm |
[Feb. 12th, 2009|04:40 pm] |
I'm doing better.. I took a drive to the Marina and sat and cried.. and just thought.. and sang into the wind.. I feel better now.. and thank you Chelan for the support.
It's just hard to imagine the world without the person that helped shape who I was...
Other than that I stopped by the International Academy of Design and Technology today and had a tour.. I'll be heading back on the 14 (hopefully) for the fashion show the with Nick V. from Project Runway... but other than that I am actually going to be applying.. I am applying for grants/ scholarships/ loans and all sorts of stuff.. so I am excited for this all.. *is very happy to be moving on* |
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| *cries* (BTW I am tired and typing over a heater... It's making my head typo) |
[Feb. 11th, 2009|01:58 am] |
| [ | the best way to describe me right now is |
| |  crushed | ] |
| [ | entering sounds |
| | Where I stood <~> Missy Higgins | ] |
I found out that my favorite aunt Judy died yesterday.
i don't even know what to say... as I think more about her I cry.
I can't believe she is really gone.
I got a lot of my spunk and a lot of laughing from her.. my love of light houses, birds and Coca-Cola. my interest in computers and wooden blinds.
The love of the ocean, dominoes, and drawing... and so much more... I am really.. just... missing her.
I DONT KNOW... WHO I AM WITHOUT YOU... All I KNOW IS I SHOULD
worst part was the dream.. i had a dream about a month ago... i didn't say anything to anyone.. but it was about her.. that she was going to die... (which I get from time to time about certain people... including myself) My mom knows about this... she also knows I have been starting to have smaller visions about my Gran'ma Nelson... which is also not cool.
*moves away from heater* I just don't know how I should deal with this.. this is a major blow to me... she was a really important person in my life.
I feel like singing the saddest song on earth.. but I know there isn't one that really fits... |
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| what the crap in prose |
[Feb. 5th, 2009|04:13 am] |
| [ | the best way to describe me right now is |
| |  frustrated | ] |
| [ | entering sounds |
| | a buzzing computer | ] |
I don't know what to say.
I don't know what to think.
I want to scream.
I want to jump from a cliff.
I want to be heard but not seen.
I want to be spoken to without words.
I want a relationship that will last.
I want a phone call; to just say goodnight.
I want to feel like I am not making a wrong descision.
I want to feel like things will be okay.
I want to feel like, for once, I did something that was the right thing.
I want my paints.
I want to take my mind off of everything.
I want to move out to escape my life.
I want a better job so I can feel accomplished in a small part of my life.
I want to not feel embarrassed.
I want to know what to say before I say it.
I want to say the right thing.
I can't think of anything besides life.
I can't think of a way around the barriers I have put on my life.
I want to know where I am going, and where I have been.
I want to remember the things I have forgotten.
I need my voice back in this world.
I need to feel like I am doing something for me.
I want him to call so we can talk about nothing, but everything.
Because it's what I need, what I want, what I can't and don't know, that scares the living shit out of me and makes me jump and freak out. I need a safe place to lay my thoughts on, to keep them hidden, to keep them from talking, and passing, onto other peoples lips.
I want to feel what I need to know but can't yet imagine. |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2009|01:22 am] |
| [ | the best way to describe me right now is |
| |  loved | ] |
OH MY CRAP!
HE IS MY KIRBY!
*DIES OF LAUGHTER* |
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| Agg! |
[Jan. 22nd, 2009|01:12 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Howard Johnson In Tukwila | ] |
| [ | the best way to describe me right now is |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | entering sounds |
| | Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop <~> Landon Pigg | ] |
NO ONE!
I REPEAT: NO ONE!
Tell me how the second episode of LOST went tonight! I had to leave in the middle of it to go to work.. so I don't know what happened.. and for some reason they have not uploaded anything yet! Ugggg!
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On the bright side... Today marks two days with me and my new boyfriend.
*laughs*
We find it funny that we have to sneak around about it... mostly because it is frowned upon by the Board of Directors (BoD) and the leadership team at my church.. and .. Oh! Looky! I am on the BoD and the Leadership Team!
Oh well. I am already looking at other church options in Renton... just to see what other churches are like.. so I don't upset anyone when me and him come out as a couple.
There are only 3 people that know who it is... David, Brit, and Raja. Hopefully I can keep it that way.. I doubt it though.
*laughs* some one is bound to notice our sneaky hand holds and our quick kisses sooner or later. |
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